Vivid dream

Wow. so it has been a while since I last blogged? I thought it wasn't too long ago.

and oh boy, lots of things have changed in between.

Ah well, first thing first. The reason I blog tonight is to record something before I forget about it later on.

So yea as per title, I had a dream few days ago (sunday morning?). Not just any dream.....

I remembered 2 scenes.

Well first one was, I dreamt of Sarah and her toddler. that was really really random, and the toddler was walking and maybe talking? (in reality just a newborn couldn't even crawl yet). I remembered being really surprise because from my memory he was still tiny (which he is in reality). Anyways, he was a cute happy little toddler, very smiley, and may he stays that way in real life!

Well, this first dream wasn't the main reason for my blog, but I thought I shall mentioned it anyway xD.

2nd dream, i dreamt of my used to be, very very close friend. Why say used-to-be? Well we don't talk to each other anymore. Why? I don't know. We did not even argue. I don't think we ever really argue? But I was furious at her at 1 point because of certain reasons, I don't know if she knows, but yes we just drifted apart, just like that, without any reasons/matters brought up between us. Well in the dream, I saw her, I felt awkward, not sure if she felt the same, she was with her foreign friends that I don't know. I forgot what happened, she started talking to me, and saying something to me (don't remember what was it anymore now, maybe something really casual, or of no importance), and then I just cut her off and blurted out, "Let's not be friends.... just, don't talk to me"

I think she was taken aback... I don't know.. I couldn't help it at that time, then I think i got emotional.

forgot who left first, or maybe both. I was really upset, tearful, and then I cried, very sad and emotional.

I don't normally cry (I can get teary easily, watching movies and stuff, but I don't cry), unless I am really really upset 受委屈.

then I woke up, and realised, there were tears, lots of tears, in my eyes on my face =.=...

I still don't know why/how I actually said what I said in my dream. Could not imagine that I will be the 1 saying it, even if it's just a dream (well it felt real at that time).I mean we used to be good friends, even though we might not hang out alot, have our own friend circles, and are busy with our lives. We even joked to be each other's bridesmaid.  We have not spoken for a year now, I couldn't on my side, couldn't bring myself to do it anymore, don't know about her, maybe she knows that I am angry hence why not talking to me? maybe she doesn't care or hasn't taken notice? maybe she is angry at me and not telling me as well? Well, who knows.....

I don't want to know... or maybe I do.

oh well, thought I will vent it out here...

Failed sick leaves

last night, woke up from a really really bad abdominal cramp. Lots and lots of wind.

I was in agony for what it seemed like hours..

By the time I went back to bed it was around 5am.

Thinking to myself, if it occurs again gonna ring my boss telling him Imma sick couldn't go into work.

So it happened again, I rang him, surprisingly he was up already, and I could hear loud classical music on the background on the other side of the phone, Geesh he was up early (I thought to myself), but then he has kids to send to school so that was probably why.

After getting approval, I went back to sleep.

Then I woke up, only to realise, it was a dream.

Then went to work, saw him, told him, he sent me home.

Then I woke up again, wth it was another dream??????!!!!! don't remember what happened but I  could recall getting off work again because I wasn't well.

However........ shall I repeat what happened again??

altogether it happened THREE TIMES!!! I called in sick THREEEEEEEEEEee TIMESSSSSSSSS in my DREAM?????!?!!!!!!

Last but not least, it was around 7am probably, or just before, I could hear my door open, or was it not shut I don't know. My brother went out for work. It was raining.

Then I heard from the bathroom there was a sound from the drainage, then I squeeky sound, as if something crawling, from the bathroom drainage up, coming closer straight into my room, sound gets louder .. up onto my bed (I didn't see it but could hear it getting closer as the sound was getting louder, all within less than 2 seconds!) I jerked awake, feeling really shocked.

Then I thought to myself, was it another dream? I couldn't be sure this time. Since there has been rats in my house (we caught 3 using the mousetrap last week, not sure if there's more). I searched under my pillows on my bed, couldn't see anything, couldn't hear anything.

the sound I heard in my dream, must be the sound of my stomach playing up........

T.T

this was a total nightmare...

I didn't even bother ringing up my boss anymore. Must be fate that I was meant to go to work!


PS: seeing how pale I looked, my colleagues sent me home for the day. After making sure stuff was done for the day and the store was quiet, I left near around noon.

and had a good rest/sleep for 6 hours, FINALLY

wo bu yao qu yi yuan

need to go to hospital again on Tues...


hated the idea of waiting whole day though.. (hopefully it won't happen again like last week)


can i not go hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm


我不喜欢看医生

Shiki

had a work dinner today just between my boss, manager, disp tech and i... to celebrate the end of my internship!

$110 per person (not including wine)... You get to watch the chef prepared your meals on spot in front of you... Enjoyed the experience and food... i have a generous boss :DDDDDDDDD

pray for a good year 2012! hope i can get a proper job!

Another day

昨天不知why心情超闷超糟。 (actually it was since monday)


think i had too much caffeine during the day i felt agitated and wanted to kill people =.=


probably low DA in the body

was gonna clean the room... but fell asleep half way texting... (i slept at 10 O.O)


today will be a good day~

我要把负面心情改变成正面能量


God.. in You i put all my trust... please lead and guide me to wherever You want me to go

NZ

i miss new zealand so so much!

habits + etc

最近多了几个好习惯...

1 multivitamin a day

breakfast (cereals) every day

bedtime before 12 during work days (that is because i am so tired lately from work zz)

no takeaway coffees/lunches (but i have a cup of coffee with breakfast at home.. hmm )

plenty of nuts every day (with breakfast and lunch)

refrain myself from shopping (and hopefully.. going from interstates.. )

make full use of my phone credits (ok.. probably not a good habit haha.. but at least i am using what i am paying for... i very very seldom text/call anyone and sembang.. if i do it's a once in a while thingy.. unless the person is my bf.. or when stressed..)

contact home more often (我这个不孝女haha mum always nags when i have wings i fly far far no news)

oh, i discovered something interesting! (ok discover is not the word for it.. i don't know).. using voice memo instead of blog.. too lazy to type haha... but when i play it back.. it feels weird listening to yourself... but nevermind.. not like im going to play it back or post it x)

keep up to date with what i have to do!

rarr rarrrrrr i still have not looked for a job yet.. so slow so late i know.. but didn't want to look for 1 before when i have no confirmation about my registration T_T

Ielts

By the end of this week, I can get myself registered as a pharmacist (non-supervised!)!! didn't realise it is that quick until i counted my hours that I had completed..

and, finally.. my confidence is sorta back! passed my ielts...! was quite worried because I did not finish my writing paper T_T... really worried... i know i am competent.. but knowing that you are competent, yet unable to show that you are from unable to fulfil or achieve a task (stupid ielts)... i felt so...... = wanted to slap myself.... would start scolding myself.. why did i go out till late the night before exam... why did i not study for it (but like Thong and york mentioned.. u couldn't really study for an english test... or for essays... u get a topic and u write about it)...

i was stressed because if i didn't pass i wouldn't be able to get registered.. next available ielts test would be midjan next year!!!


but guess what.. managed to score above 7!

on top of that, scored 9 for both reading and listening!!!!!

at least i proved to myself that, my english improved since 5 years ago =) (YESSH my overall band score is better than 5 years ago too~~~ so glad, don't think i can score better in future unless i perfect every sections)..

"knew you could do it".. "we never doubted you for that"..."i have faith in you all the while"..

Thank you for that! well i have no faith in myself!

and thanks to those who wished me good luck.. indeed i must have received lotsa luck! (KN MZ JK DT????? xD)


after all the stress, i found out that i did not have to sit for it O.O!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

apparently if i scored above 7 for every section for previous ielts test (i did 1 in nz 5 years ago), i could use that for exemption provided that i fulfilled every other requirements (Eg studied an approved course/ worked full time ever since)...

so yea... =.=

waste of money? not really... i can use that for my PR application now... extra points..=)

一步一步走

Now.. im learning to do things... 1 step at a time....


doing too many things at once is no good... (not all the time though of course!)


take things slow ba =)

Tears of JOY

Tear of happiness...


that's what I'm experiencing right now...

and i finally understood (as in why people shed tears of joy when tears are usually meant for sadness)...

When you thought you have no hope, and u were suddenly given 1... the heavy burden = lifted and gone...

真的轻松多了！


I am so glad

Thank you Lord.. you blessed me so much!

random #6 害怕

不说不代表没事没问题。

其实我也很害怕。

dream #4

昨晚梦见他！

1st time =)


not a bad dream.. 我好像是在转达些讯息

then i woke up shortly after

hi Summer 2011

what a way to begin my 1st day of summer


WOken up partly due to my alarm at 6.. partly due to my stomach


spasm/cramps... i was like.. crap... in pain... (and till now i have no idea why)

and decided to call in sick.. (have plenty of sick leaves left might as well)

was supposed to start at 12.. but did not want to wait till 11 to see if pain subsides.. what if it didn't, then they will have less time to look for someone else to cover

managed to get a few things done... booking done, hmr letter done, went to the immigration office to enquire about my visa done...

OK.. gonna be a very busy day tomorrow.... BIG oRDER coming in for first week of the month　T_T (at least i don't have to do the ordering today xD)

now i wish that i work weekend.. i can get so many things done during weekdays that i can't on weekends (since it is very likely that i'll spend my weekends out with friends... plus most shops/banks/offices do not open on weekends hmmm)

Doggie doggie

i want a pomeranian or short legged scottish terrier ~_~




and a slave to look after their eat sleep crap hahaha

random thought

it has been a month since i realised about 1 thing...


something that I've never ever experienced before


I like the idea.. i can't do anything about it (i probably could but just couldn't bring myself to risk it)

I am sad about the idea


haha i don't know what im talking about now =P


keep it to myself ba for now

感觉

以前都不曾有这样的感觉&想法...

loved

想想，我其实蛮受宠的..

朋友家庭...

甚至被宠坏了... 有时候

要知福啊..

hair dye

i have always wanted to dye my hair... RED...

I don't know how to describe the red that I like, not the bright red of course

Few factors that make me abit reluctant to dye my hair

#1 It may damage your hair

#2 What if the colour that turns out is not what I've wanted? (i will hate myself)

#3 My hair is not blackish (can be brownish.. my hair stylist thought I dyed my hair before, can be a good and bad thing = my hair was really brown, my hair was in bad damaged condition).. in a way it is sorta like, I don't need to dye it (last week Th thought i dyed my hair when he looked at it under the lights)

#4 I've never dyed my hair before.. so just for the sake of it... haha


i still would like to try red... 1 day!

i wonder if it would suit me...


(We tried it on Dao last week, it was cool haha.. )

11.11.11

this is just like every other day.. a unique special day... just like every other day..

i had a good day... good day at work... good day after work...

oh happy day =)

can't be bothered?

懒惰交新朋友，是因为懒的重新交dai自己的人生


so true..