Vivid dream

Wow. so it has been a while since I last blogged? I thought it wasn't too long ago.

and oh boy, lots of things have changed in between.

Ah well, first thing first. The reason I blog tonight is to record something before I forget about it later on.

So yea as per title, I had a dream few days ago (sunday morning?). Not just any dream.....

I remembered 2 scenes.

Well first one was, I dreamt of Sarah and her toddler. that was really really random, and the toddler was walking and maybe talking? (in reality just a newborn couldn't even crawl yet). I remembered being really surprise because from my memory he was still tiny (which he is in reality). Anyways, he was a cute happy little toddler, very smiley, and may he stays that way in real life!

Well, this first dream wasn't the main reason for my blog, but I thought I shall mentioned it anyway xD.

2nd dream, i dreamt of my used to be, very very close friend. Why say used-to-be? Well we don't talk to each other anymore. Why? I don't know. We did not even argue. I don't think we ever really argue? But I was furious at her at 1 point because of certain reasons, I don't know if she knows, but yes we just drifted apart, just like that, without any reasons/matters brought up between us. Well in the dream, I saw her, I felt awkward, not sure if she felt the same, she was with her foreign friends that I don't know. I forgot what happened, she started talking to me, and saying something to me (don't remember what was it anymore now, maybe something really casual, or of no importance), and then I just cut her off and blurted out, "Let's not be friends.... just, don't talk to me"

I think she was taken aback... I don't know.. I couldn't help it at that time, then I think i got emotional.

forgot who left first, or maybe both. I was really upset, tearful, and then I cried, very sad and emotional.

I don't normally cry (I can get teary easily, watching movies and stuff, but I don't cry), unless I am really really upset 受委屈.

then I woke up, and realised, there were tears, lots of tears, in my eyes on my face =.=...

I still don't know why/how I actually said what I said in my dream. Could not imagine that I will be the 1 saying it, even if it's just a dream (well it felt real at that time).I mean we used to be good friends, even though we might not hang out alot, have our own friend circles, and are busy with our lives. We even joked to be each other's bridesmaid.  We have not spoken for a year now, I couldn't on my side, couldn't bring myself to do it anymore, don't know about her, maybe she knows that I am angry hence why not talking to me? maybe she doesn't care or hasn't taken notice? maybe she is angry at me and not telling me as well? Well, who knows.....

I don't want to know... or maybe I do.

oh well, thought I will vent it out here...

Bad stuff comes in three

Today's my day off. Slept at 4 last night so I didn't wake up early enough (9ish).

Received a text message at 6am being told I did some stuff wrong when I was just following orders. Luckily I did not wake up from my phone alert. Well that wasn't the worst part.

In fact was in quite relatively good mood. Till I decided to tidy my room for real. I found suspected rat poo in my room. Remembered how I blogged previously regarding dreaming bout rat crawling up next to my bed. This might not be a dream after all @_@.

That prompted me to further tidy my room. For Some reason my heart told me to look for my burberry scarf. So I kept an eye out for it while folding and putting away my mountain high pile of clothes. Still I did not see it. I started looking into the living room and study room as I do put stuff there quite often after using it.

No, I could not locate it anywhere. Even the cloth bag that comes with it is no where to be seen. I started to panic, searched everywhere twice three four times. Really hope that it wasn't stolen.  Don't like to doubt people  but I have my phone stolen in my friends house before

Sad and emo now. Only have very few photos with the scarf on. T.T

UPDATE:

My dear awesome brother found my scarf for me!! apparently fell behind some drawers! (I told him roughly the area that I didn't look hard enough before I have to leave house for some appointments, he found it then :) 

Oh scarf I'm gonna make sure I don't lose you again!