Vivid dream

Wow. so it has been a while since I last blogged? I thought it wasn't too long ago.

and oh boy, lots of things have changed in between.

Ah well, first thing first. The reason I blog tonight is to record something before I forget about it later on.

So yea as per title, I had a dream few days ago (sunday morning?). Not just any dream.....

I remembered 2 scenes.

Well first one was, I dreamt of Sarah and her toddler. that was really really random, and the toddler was walking and maybe talking? (in reality just a newborn couldn't even crawl yet). I remembered being really surprise because from my memory he was still tiny (which he is in reality). Anyways, he was a cute happy little toddler, very smiley, and may he stays that way in real life!

Well, this first dream wasn't the main reason for my blog, but I thought I shall mentioned it anyway xD.

2nd dream, i dreamt of my used to be, very very close friend. Why say used-to-be? Well we don't talk to each other anymore. Why? I don't know. We did not even argue. I don't think we ever really argue? But I was furious at her at 1 point because of certain reasons, I don't know if she knows, but yes we just drifted apart, just like that, without any reasons/matters brought up between us. Well in the dream, I saw her, I felt awkward, not sure if she felt the same, she was with her foreign friends that I don't know. I forgot what happened, she started talking to me, and saying something to me (don't remember what was it anymore now, maybe something really casual, or of no importance), and then I just cut her off and blurted out, "Let's not be friends.... just, don't talk to me"

I think she was taken aback... I don't know.. I couldn't help it at that time, then I think i got emotional.

forgot who left first, or maybe both. I was really upset, tearful, and then I cried, very sad and emotional.

I don't normally cry (I can get teary easily, watching movies and stuff, but I don't cry), unless I am really really upset 受委屈.

then I woke up, and realised, there were tears, lots of tears, in my eyes on my face =.=...

I still don't know why/how I actually said what I said in my dream. Could not imagine that I will be the 1 saying it, even if it's just a dream (well it felt real at that time).I mean we used to be good friends, even though we might not hang out alot, have our own friend circles, and are busy with our lives. We even joked to be each other's bridesmaid.  We have not spoken for a year now, I couldn't on my side, couldn't bring myself to do it anymore, don't know about her, maybe she knows that I am angry hence why not talking to me? maybe she doesn't care or hasn't taken notice? maybe she is angry at me and not telling me as well? Well, who knows.....

I don't want to know... or maybe I do.

oh well, thought I will vent it out here...

new year resolutions pt 2

before I start stating 2016 resolutions, would like to mention a few that I have achieved from past years :D


2014/2015 resolutions that I have achieved
- forming the habit of cleanse-tone-moisturize
 I used to be very horrible in terms of putting anything on my face (or cleaning  =.=).. I would just use makeup wipes to clean my face instead of cleanser, and skip toning or moisturizing. However, due to the massive amount of expired face products due to my lack of using and my love for buying random ones to try (and my increasing horrible skin condition because i did not take care of it), I forced myself to start doing the cleanse-tone-moisturize routine, and noticed a change.. my skin is not as dry now :D. Now, it is part of my twice daily routine which I am glad to have achieved, I still forget at times especially when I stay at home all day and not venture out which is fair enough.

- bond with my little brother more
Even though my younger brother and I live under the same roof, we can live without talking to each other for dayssss. When i came home after work, I would head to my laptop and glue to it for ages. Whenever I traveled, He found out about my travel plans from friends instead of myself because we seldom communicated. He stopped cooking due to both of us being at work full time and being tired. We barely ate together unless I mentioned to eat out during my day off.
I wanted to change that, or at least make my household living being happy :). So, end of last year, I decided to start cooking and eating at home more. I try to cook during my day off so we can eat together for dinner (and to save some $$). He was quite surprised when he noticed the change. Now, whenever he comes home on my day off, he will eagerly ask me if I am gonna cook :), and he tries to cook on the day that I work. We will eat together on the dining table instead of in front of our respective laptops. I like that change, and i'm sure he does to.
My next step is to find the effort to play board games with him, seeing that he loves it so much ;)
this family bonding is gonna be an ongoing task for sure!



OKAY, enough said. time to list out my part 2 goals:
i need to
-  DECLUTTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THIS has been an ongoing project since forever!  There are always clutter everywhere. I must admit that im a hoarder, I just couldn't get myself to get rid of several little small things (including empty jars/shampoo bottles that I have used =.=)..

The cleanest my room has ever been is usually right before I fly off to somewhere, because either I have no mood to pack if there is mess around,or i procrastinate by tiding my room and leave packing till the very last minute), or I tidy my room along the way in search of what to pack... hmmm i'm not making any sense here haha don't know what I am typing.

Anyway I need to get rid of ALOT of things:

CLOTHES
clothes that I no longer wear even though it's still quite new looking, clothes that I can't wear because I 长肉了 T____T , clothes that I said to myself maybe I will wear it again 1 day, clothes that I have no occasion to wear.... etc

PAPERWORK
books and reading materials from uni, i still have them. feel sad to throw all my hardwork out though my brother kept naggging at me about them. But i really should say goodbye to them, I don't need them anymore! (easier typed than done).. also some bank statements, old rental contracts/paperwork, pharmacy reading materials etc


BODYSKINCARE/COSMETICS
oh, and expired samples/skincare/cosmetics/medications... I have tons of them... i seldom use cosmetics especially mascara, lip stuff but i like to buy them (maybe I should start wearing them more during work) =.=.. the only ones i use more, are foundation/bb cream, and even those i have lots of them that have been sitting around for more than 2 years, unfinished.. some . are not cheap so it feels quite wasted just to throw them out (i need someone to come and throw it away for me xD)... and lots of samples that I get from work place, i seldom even touch them! (hence nowadays i don't really take samples/freebies anymore).. Bottles of body moisturisers that are out of date..


to prevent stuff from expiring before I use them, I came up with my next goal:
- MOISTURISE/MOISTURISE, MOISTURISE!!!!

Need to start using my body moisturiser and lip balm. My skin/lips are so dry due to the dry australian weather. Bought all these good moisturisers and lip balms but never used them, just checked these products and they were all expired! On the other hand I actually have less expired facial skincare now  (excluding body moisturisers) ever since forming the habit of cleanse-tone-moisturise routine 2 years ago.. so this year i shall apply the same method for body moisturisers, and lip balm!



hmmmm 2 goals listed... enough time spent.. to be continued :).. gonna shower now.. let's hope i remember to moisturize after xD

New year 2016 resolutions part 1

New Year 2016 Resolutions pt 1~

I guess it is the time of the year again, new year, new plans, new goals.

I tried not to set any goals in the past (partly because I knew I would not follow/achieve any of them hahahahaha).

However, I suppose this year I would like to motivate myself and set goals for myself. I have been in my comfort zone for so long, I need some sort of challenges, hey I have so many more years to go, I can't stay the same all the time aye? Have to 进化to the better keke.

Okay shall start listing all my goals!

- Be fitter and healthier
One thing that I was proud of myself at the end of last year, I started going back to the gym (after paying for the membership since 2011 and BARELY went at all!) yup... I paid for not going, such a waste of money I know, tried to ring to cancel it once i think back in 2012 or 2013, but they said I couldn't cancel it over the phone and have to pop in to see them, AND I WAS THAT CBB and just kept paying instead =.= (bad on me). Partially because of my shift work till late night and they closed at 10pm, I did not have time to go after hours (and I could not be bothered to wake up at 6am to go sweat myself in the gym before work, nor gym on my day off after a 12 hours shift, yup you can say they were all excuses).

Last year, I decided to cancel it for good, went to their website 1 last time to check out anything good (eg gym classes, attend one or 2 before cancelling), then found out the gym near to mine just become 24/7 for 2 weeks. I was so excited because I always hoped my gym is 24/7 like some other ones so I can go after work :). See how I tried to cancel twice and something else turned up to stop me hehe, must be a sign from God hehe. So I started straight away, think it was back in October or November on the days that I work (roughly 3-5x a week).

不过因为十二月从印尼回来时生病了，加上工作开始很忙，所以直到过年一个多月没去了。不过今晚终于下定决心又开始！I've decided that if I were to stop attending for 2 months straight, I shall cancel my gym membership!!

Proof of my first gym session for 2016, pardon my 丑态 哈哈哈哈 (eye bags and break outs from late nights haihs need to fix that!)

So yeah, be fit and healthier, going to gym is part of the plan (I definitely find my stamina to have improved :). 我不期望会有个苗条有骨感的身材, i am not born with that sort of genes & have accepted that fact, but at least I want to be healthier and look healther, fit enough to climb mount fuji in future is my goal! :)
2ndly, eat healthier and sleep earlier and drink more water!!! sounds simple? But I don't do it =.=, or haven't been in the past..........................................


- COOK MORE!
Last year end (又是去年年底！）I started cooking more. Not that I didn't cook at all in the past, just mainly cooked for myself (dump everything.. veges fish balls eggs mushrooms you name it into a pot and boil them and then add noodles, macam eating 火锅 LOL, but that Was my staple in the past!) I blamed that on long 12 hours working shift again, and CBB cooking on days off because to me day off IS a DAY OFF (those who constantly work long shifts, 你懂的). 然后，出现了转机~ my brother, who was a vegetarian, decided to add fish in his diet! (之前我的借口之一是嫌他麻烦不知要煮什么给他）.So again I got excited and started to find stuff to cook for us. 他一开始觉得很奇怪我怎么突然开始下厨，thought it was for the other half xD.

Anyways, I have been craving for korean food for a while, and since flights to KOREA is pretty expensive, I can't just book and fly over there like what I did for japan =.=. Went online came across a korean youtuber called Maangchi who has plenty of korean cuisine recipes, and alot of them are simple to follow (mind you I am a very 懒散 and 嫌麻烦 person and if the steps are complicated or if I can't get the ingredients from my local grocer I will not proceed further!). SO 我决定从她拿下手！I am glad I came across her, tried a few of her recipes (including the tuna pancakes) and they worked out well :)

I always love soft tofu stew, and the ones I have from Rundle mall food court just doesn't cut it, so decided to make my own! I was impressed!! LOVE IT!! (thanks to the recipe!)

When I first saw the recipe to make these bread rolls, I was amazed at how easy it looks! So I tried it (after more than 1 month, talk about being lazy and also having baking phobia lol 我讨厌把手弄脏，have truely overcome that by now hehe)..

So far I have baked or used flour multiple times, partly motivated to finish off the soon to expire flour!

So yup 2016 definitely more cooking + baking!!!!! to 省钱 (暂时还没省到，because I started spending money on baking gadgets =.=)

more goals, but I think I have typed enough. will continue on later, =) hopefully not half a year later lol.. need to shower its nearly 12am! (oh wells what to do, late shift late gym late everything =/) 

PS: the above goals were sort of my past year (not mentioned) resolutions that I have been failing to achieve. so hopefully this year I will actually do something and be persistent in it =)

Tuna pancake recipe

Made tuna pancakes today with a recipe that I found online.

It turned out well so I shall write down the ingredients here for future reference :)

Tuna Pancakes (more like fishcakes lol) - 6 pieces

- 2 small cans of tuna (water drained)
- 1/4 cup of chopped onions
- 1 tbs of plain flour
- 1 whole x-large egg
- 1 tsp oil (sesame), (or butter or others)
- 1/2 tsp of salt (or more)
- 1/4 tsp grounded pepper (approximately)
- 1 mince garlic
- cheese (optional)
- chives/ thyme/ chilli (optional)

hmmm i reckon thats it.. mix all the above, then pan fry.. (flip when one side turns golden brown).. takes about 5 minutes

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Tada, don't have any greens to garnish, I used whatever I found in ma fridge... cherry tomatoes. Worked out well because they were so sweet went well with the salty tuna :)

Besides Tuna, other meat/fish can be used to substitute.. Ivan is a pescatarian so my cooking leans more towards fish and vege.

就这样！最近想多尝试下厨Try 不一样的东西 （主要是材料简单步骤简单不然我也懒得去试 xD) ... 想吃什么就上网找食谱

ok TA!