减薪了！

officially getting paid as a full time pharma!

BUT

suffer tiny bit from pay cut!

BUT

in a good way :D

more like getting paid like what it had always been before pay rise.. with annual leaves!




holidays im gonna accumulate you once again! <3

work fatigue

physically exhausted... mentally dead...

i have never been this tired before.. 1or 2 sleep in(s) or will not get rid of this... 1 day or 2 will not do the trick either...

i need at least 1 week off if not at least 3-4 days off in a row... doing nothing!

am getting a little stressed from being tired, since I will not be able to perform to my expectations/satisfaction at work.

I am usually quite ok doing long shifts continuously for 1-2 weeks... but this time, it was for 2 months... 

was mentally prepared for it.. I did well for the first month... until things didn't go as planned (E.g. work extra shift /settle some important stuff when meant to have a day break/ being sick but couldn't get cover)

on top of that, unforeseen circumstances.. unwanted issues popped up when I wasn't prepared for it, all these added to my mental exhaustion.. 

my nightly skype lately (for the past 2 months at least) usually begins with have you eaten/just finish work/shower time @10pm/11pm... then fell asleep half way chatting... felt so bad /.\

don't like myself to be in the state where I keep telling myself or people around, I wish i can go home.. I don't wanna be at work...  not good when I actually like my job and enjoy working

this is the only time when I think being intern is great.. at least if you really wanna bludge or if you are sick you can call up and tell them you can't go into work... but now as a pharmacist, if I become ill, I have to find someone else to cover (very hard if it's short notice) if not, the shop cannot operate, without a pharmacist... 

in future, I'll make sure I give myself enough room/break for any unforeseen circumstances.. so that I won't overwork myself too much! oh ya, and learn to say no and stop feeling bad.. (as much as I would love to help out I need to care for myself first)

1 more week of locum work! I'm glad i manage to get someone to cover 2 shifts instead of doing 6x12 hours in a row! :)

爱情

当爱情真的来临时，真的会想那么多吗？

malware WTH?!

WTH came to my own blog and saw this BEwARE malware detected sign =.=

pretty sure its safe so i proceeded anyways ;)

好朋友好事近：）

上某个星期，我的一位有几乎五年未见的朋友，突然联系，convo 如下：

C: hi Cheryl, Guess what?
me: what?
C: guess
me: you're engaged? xD
C: good guess
me: O.O

当我知道后为他感到超兴奋超高兴的！高兴得连睡觉都是微笑着的，LOL有点傻好像自己要结婚似的。


以前，朋友结婚都是听回来，或是他们在fb公布，或是你大概知道会发生了然后不久后他们发请柬给你。

第一次吧，朋友亲口告诉，“我要结婚了！”

这与告诉你有男/女朋友，感觉很不一样。

有很感动的，毕竟我们还真的蛮久没联络，他也有说，高中朋友他还有联系的好像除我以外也没几个了（他人性格比较静）。


他们在一起也有三年多了，记得他们在一起时他也有告诉我，我们偶尔会联系，多数是他主动，我这个人不善于与朋友联系>.<, 有时候也因为很忙自己的东西。Kiwi 人很可爱，他们很少很少用网路，不用msn （他之前有因为联络而安装了），他们都是用googlechat (我不喜欢因为很少用gmail)。加上因时差问题，慢慢的就联系得少之又少。


问他怎么那么突然（想结婚），他说，也没有很突然，去年就想了，不过现在才有勇气问女方的父母。问他何时结婚，他说，今年11月呢！他说，原本是打算周末求婚，不过星期三时，他不想再等，所以鼓起勇气到她父母家说出他的意愿（他说紧张得冒汗LOL），过后再驾车到另个几十公里外的她去。


浪漫吧？


我在此献上祝福，希望这对即将成为家人的情侣以及他们的家人，always blessed and guided by Dear Father in heaven.

Frustrations

Sometimes, I get really annoyed at people, that just sit there and wait, expecting something good to happen to them, giving excuses that there are no opportunities, when I am making great effort to achieve what I want.

stop giving excuses and create the opportunity if there is none. Show others you can and worthy for them to put their faith in your abilities.

Guy with no ambition and full of excuses... frustrates me....

讨厌

有时候，

觉得自己很差劲，

想法不好，

不够体谅，

只顾自己，

不顾家，

不是个好姐姐，

自私，

不知足，

不感恩。

真的很不喜欢这样的自己

难过

sometimes, i really hate myself for all the negative thoughts in me

getting a new toy

i was in a dilemma, whether I should get a netbook, an ultrabook, tablet, or a macbook Air.

My Top priority, would be portability.

Tablet - very portable, even has docked keyboard and usb port (will not get 1 without usb port!), but i guess, limited functions. Price wise affordable ($800ish)

netbook - very portable, can do basic stuff .. very cheap ($300ish), crappy specs though.. well pretty much if i want something immediately for a cheap price i would go for this, but can i bear with ugly screen (compared to other questions), that is another thing to think about.

ultrabook - portable (11inch), better specs among all, more pricy compared to the ones above ($1k-1.5k)

macbook air - portable (11inch), specs similar to an ultrabook, IT IS A MAC, less issues with antivirus, not windows, very expensive ($1k-2k or 3k.. knowing myself i will pump it up to nearly $3k)

leaning towards ultrabook and macbook air, since my current laptop is pretty much dying.

no netbook, no tablet!


hence, new goal has been set - fund for my new toy!

right after i set this goal, i received texts to ask me to work some shifts, i was reluctant to work initially (as i have been busy enough and hence will be tired), but when the macbook air comes into mind, i agreed without thinking much further =)... made my decisions making easier! hehe $400 extra into my piggy by the end of this week!

was asked if i wanted to work too today when i was in the shop, but... instead of taking that 12 hours shift (easily $300ish !!!!!!!) , i spend $100 on body massage and lunch.... $$$$$$$.. money oh money!! but, it was a good massage and good day not working =).. i guess i need to give myself some time off at times


funding timeframe indefinite, but will most probably get it before I leave Australia to go to anywhere overseas. That way i can claim back $200ish GST. Good thing that I am still a Malaysian/tourist xD

What if

I know, if I want something, I will go for it ..

I will try all ways to achieve what I know I want.

But, what if, I'm not sure?

What if I don't know if that's really what I want?

What if, I want to and try and don't get it?

Disappointment?

Yeah, I'm very afraid.

I don't know.

Confidence much needed

New interest

my newest interest is to see my bank account growing fatter week by week =)


1 day, dream will be fulfilled!

Apathy

they say that the opposite of love, is not hate. But apathy.. 


we become indifferent, and we just don't care at all. 


IF you hate, at least you still think about the person. 


With apathy, you just do not care...              


(quoted from art~~)

I'm in the same state, in regards to my faith/religion... I need to recover my Passion back...

Pray

Anzac day

April 25th Anzac day sorta like a national war memorial day for Australia&NZ

 also my day off :D... after a week of non stop working! (was meant to work today but too bad im not familiar on how to use the lotto yet haha thank goodness)

 so what i have done (besides sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep!):

 pre-Anzac day after work: shower+ click games (xD)

 desserts with York and Liyin at Chocolatetree

 12am sharp: movies at Marion with them and the rest of the guys and also half of Adelaide population =.= The AvengerS that i have been anticipating since last year!!! xD.. some people even cosplayed to the movie wth such dedication!

 Marion was like, damn packed!!!! luckily thong bought tix the night before

the movie was good, I did fell asleep initially at 1 point due to being tooooooooooooo tired, but was awake for the rest of the action parts...... wah i love the hulk he was the man/hero! and funny too

 by the time movie ended it was almost 3am =.=... too tired so i skipped my supposed dinner at maccas... and went home straight to bed!



 11am: had a sleep in and woke up... woken up by Wayne actually... to go for picnic in botanical gardens... was planning to bail and was lying in bed till he called again 1 hour later to ask where i was =.= xD so off i went :D... to settle my hungry tummy...

went home did my laundry after.. then rundle mall met up with miss liyin bumped into cindy... went to chocolate bean for some hot drink and food.. then maccas to satisfy our cravings... then went to liyin's parents' work place... sat there and waited for her parents to close up... 2 random strangers kept talking to us non stop WTH.. was in food coma so most of the time just ignored them...

went home i went straight to bed (almost straight away anyways :D)! had a more than 5hours nap woke up 12am sharp =.=.. then clicked some games.. and randomly felt like blogging so i am here...

 time to try to go back to sleep have to work tomorrow!

daily routine

每天的上班routine (that is, if/when i have work): wake up

shower/washup/moisturise coffee/breakfast+click game 1 minute make up (lol 我很懒我只涂粉底） 买咖啡+上班

放工回到家的routine(usually around 9.30pm) 按电脑放空space out at least 一个小时

shower/moisturise click computer (lately addicted to castleville i am still clicking it at the moment)

read some manga (now on fairy tail) some news+music sometimes drama series dinner (i know omg so late and just before i sleep too! 怪不得我肥了！） sleep ....

cbb

no motivation to blog.... hmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Easter Friday

Sum of my Easter Friday: never been happier, for this month this year at least! =) Too bad i have to work today

勇气

请给我少许勇气 就那么一点

break

我刚结束的两个星期上班时间总共比我两位上司还多 不过这星期开始.. 四月我没什么工作 T________________________________________________________________T 本来有可能得到的固定shifts因为要换经理而有所更变，现在又是未知数了 只好耐心等待看看，顺便把身边拖了很久的事搞定吧 还有好好学习！

day light

for once, i ended my day of work before the sun sets (initially i think boss was tempted to go home and let me stay but he felt bad after he said) it felt really different to drive home during day light... feels awesome =) and the radio broadcast is abit different compared to after 9pm... i like! ahhh end of march.. day light.. which reminds me... Day light saving is ending soon! T_T which means.. winter is approaching.....

team pharmacists!

这个星期，又再不知不觉从没工作到累计成full time hours (应该会有三十八个小时吧）。 tomorrow is very understaffed, till that there will be no shop girls at all! so the plan is, we shall have TEAM PHARMACISTS tomorrow ROFL (My boss, my manager and I) working, plus 1 intern in the shop... wages for the shop are going to be high for this week, since it is very RARE to have 2 pharmacists at a time let alone all 3 ah well, i need money

Swimming

went swimming yesterday, finally after yearssssssssssssssssssssss..... had not been to the aquatic centre ever since the renovation was completed last year in Sept was meant to go at 9 in the morning, but due to late night the night before (4am ! =.=), ended up going at 11ish... if i don't include the diving trip that i went few weeks ago, it has been more than 1 year i think since i last swam... no swimming buddy (Zhi Liang is working in rural not in Adelaide anymore), lack of time, procrastination, renovations, laziness all contributed to the lack of swimming.. started of not that great, i have the tendency to wanna slack and not swim.. but after a while, sorta gotten into routine.. just that my stomach was constantly hungry as i had nothing in the morning...! it was still good, did a good 1 hour swimming, followed by some sauna, steam and spa still yet to try the diving pool, i must admit, I am quite cowardy in this (afraid of heights!!).. oh ya about the renovation... wasn't too impressed by it... not much of a improvement i would say... (at least most stuff still look the same to me, except for the roof).. cost more too now! $7.50 for adults.. good thing i look young and they charged me at a concession rate LOL xD... look forward to doing more swimming+ exercising.. less procrastination & laziness.. not sure about gym, i did not do much last year despite the membership (ashamed of myself lol)..

四果汤

i wonder if i will still remember the details of the dream when i wake up for the 2nd time.. if i do i shall talk about it then... =) it makes me homesick now. >.< post a pic here... this was part of my dream! (although i did not get to eat it so sad)

wanna be with u no matter what?

saw this somewhere quite meaningful

情人节快到了，
我对月老说：我希望和我喜欢的人永远在一起。
月老说：只能四天.
我说好：春天夏天秋天冬天。
月老说：只能三天。
我说好：昨天今天明天。
月老说：只能两天
我说：白天黑天。
月老说：就一天
我说好：
月老茫然问：要哪一天？
我说：每一天
月老哭了

Unproductive way of spending my holiday

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeehhhhhhhhhhh... i brought paperwork from Adelaide back home to look through..

i was supposed to redo my Itune music library (get rid of some music that I don't listen to)

Type a reference letter

Type up my resume

Tidy up my hard drive

Watch Nasi lemak that Wai Che gave me

Renew my Msia drivers licence

Certify my documents




I haven't done any of the above WTH

wo bu yao qu yi yuan

need to go to hospital again on Tues...


hated the idea of waiting whole day though.. (hopefully it won't happen again like last week)


can i not go hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm


我不喜欢看医生

health

i don't know if it's due to what i've studied in uni, i wasn't too bothered by being ill or feeling unwell... compared to before...

body is not functioning like usual.. and i did not make time to see the dr in Aus.. well i was quite busy.. and i thought it should be ok..

and i assume that me feeling unwell is more stress/work related...

i hope it is going to be ok.. feeling abit worried now...

let's hope tomorrow i won't be diagnosed with weird illness

FIRED

i cant help it.. must do this (although again.. no work related stuff!)

the retail manager who gave me a lot of hard times during my internship.. 被火掉了（aka fired.. pardon my misuse of vocabs)..

doesn't concern me as much anyone since i am no longer a permanent staff there...

feel sorry for her.. a tiny bit..

although..心里也会暗爽啦

not only me.. but the entire shop staffs were happy about the news...

=)

no work

it has been a while since i've come here.. or stalk friends' blogs..

omg.. i realised all i blogged about was work for the past few posts =.=..

have been working heaps for the past few weeks.. till i have no time for friends.. no time for family.. no time to sleep.. no time for even myself!

i could finally relax and not to think about work during my holidays



i should 改正 myself...

no work-related-rants after work!

事业

我想拼事业

有机会我想在这方面更上一层楼

不过有时也不能光等待，有时候机会是要去争取的。

所以加油吧，要相信自己的实力。

（还是等假期回来再算kekekeke xD)

Shiki

had a work dinner today just between my boss, manager, disp tech and i... to celebrate the end of my internship!

$110 per person (not including wine)... You get to watch the chef prepared your meals on spot in front of you... Enjoyed the experience and food... i have a generous boss :DDDDDDDDD

pray for a good year 2012! hope i can get a proper job!