i have never been this tired before.. 1or 2 sleep in(s) or will not get rid of this... 1 day or 2 will not do the trick either...
i need at least 1 week off if not at least 3-4 days off in a row... doing nothing!
am getting a little stressed from being tired, since I will not be able to perform to my expectations/satisfaction at work.
I am usually quite ok doing long shifts continuously for 1-2 weeks... but this time, it was for 2 months...
was mentally prepared for it.. I did well for the first month... until things didn't go as planned (E.g. work extra shift /settle some important stuff when meant to have a day break/ being sick but couldn't get cover)
on top of that, unforeseen circumstances.. unwanted issues popped up when I wasn't prepared for it, all these added to my mental exhaustion..
my nightly skype lately (for the past 2 months at least) usually begins with have you eaten/just finish work/shower time @10pm/11pm... then fell asleep half way chatting... felt so bad /.\
don't like myself to be in the state where I keep telling myself or people around, I wish i can go home.. I don't wanna be at work... not good when I actually like my job and enjoy working
this is the only time when I think being intern is great.. at least if you really wanna bludge or if you are sick you can call up and tell them you can't go into work... but now as a pharmacist, if I become ill, I have to find someone else to cover (very hard if it's short notice) if not, the shop cannot operate, without a pharmacist...
in future, I'll make sure I give myself enough room/break for any unforeseen circumstances.. so that I won't overwork myself too much! oh ya, and learn to say no and stop feeling bad.. (as much as I would love to help out I need to care for myself first)
1 more week of locum work! I'm glad i manage to get someone to cover 2 shifts instead of doing 6x12 hours in a row! :)
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