遇見幸福

昨晚我遇見幸福

說遇見,其實是夢見吧

很真實呢．

那時候感覺像是在馬來西亞．

至少我記得車門有大馬國旗的標誌ｗｔｈ？？？！

說到那個夢, 夢里與一班朋友,好像是一起去遊玩.

夢里有我的他.. 我與他,微笑的看著對方

我與他,還有一班朋友,大家都很高興的,乘坐一輛大型的車, 像是要去個地方

夢里能感覺到, 幸福感很充實..有一直不停微笑着的


覺得夢真的很奇怪...very mysterious..

無論夢里多不邏輯,卻會覺得很真.

醒來了會覺得, wth what was that??

夢里的那個他, 現實中我知道他是誰.. 是認識的...

不過, 與他半個撇都畫不上

我甚至現在懷疑自己,有沒有記錯人, 畢竟夢醒後很多事情難免不太記得 了.

我一開始夢醒了也不記得我做過這個夢.

只是印象中我的夢很美好,所以拼命去想去到底夢見了什麼

現在記起了,想要寫下來記下來.


Sometimes I wonder what dream is. Why people dream? Why it felt so different in a dream world? Things are so blizzard can feel so logical and real.

Don't know when I will meet my Mr, I really don't have a clue. Having being single for this long felt strange, but not in a bad way. :) of course if he comes into the picture, I will welcome him with open arms ROF, share everything that I love/found.. Till then, I am enjoying exploring different new things.. and the me time..

Nevertheless, thanks for the sweet dream. Although it was just a dream, it made me happy/smile in a way that I hadn't felt for a long time

I hope everyone else have a wonderful dream too (although its day time now hahaha, time for nap???!)

祝大家也有個好夢吧 ~

Love~

60 day water challenge!

Hmmm.. it has been more than half a year since I blogged!

Time to continue where I left off, I supposed?

Before I realise, 2 months have passed since the start of 2014! Time sure flies!

Past 2 months have been productive in various ways though, I shall blog about them later (if I don't procrastinate and disappear again ;P).

After 3 busy months, finally this time March is gonna be a quieter month for me, hence time to catch up with various other stuff.

Recently set up a 60 day challenge for myself (as of 1st of March). The challenge is to have at least a glass of water bd (aka twice daily morning and night). It probably sounds very simple to you, but trust me it is quite challenging for me as I barely drink even a glass of water daily O.O (colleagues make me coffee/tea during work but that doesn't quite count).

Started few days ago, have been going on quite well I would say. Hope this continues. Would love to implement some healthy routines / alter some bad habits. This is just the start. :) Part of my 2014 resolutions.

health conscious -> must be a sign of aging. T_T

Anyways wish me luck! xD

PS: both photos here grabbed from some random webbie not mine teehee thank you

RIP democracy

never had i felt so painful for my country..

im not much of a patriotic person usually i must say! know nothing much/ care less about politics etc..

不过因为最近热门话题都围绕着大马大选，多少有关注一下。

昨晚虽然要工作不过还是一直注意着fb feeds.. 直到回到家也是准备不睡直到大选成绩揭晓。还蛮兴奋的。

想说希望外劳的票数不会太过影响成绩 （这个我相信很多人知道也且很无奈的被迫接受了）

想说为什么要拖成绩，输了就服输啊（当时非官方消息透露了PR赢了）

but when fb feeds were all about how taxis were trying to transport (ok i wouldn't use smuggle, they did it under moonlight in front of everyone that was there) fake votes to EC.. blackouts, recounts  = 真的是爱莫能助！


过后干脆去睡了，睡醒了看成绩还是难过的流泪了。然后继续睡！（我这里也是放假！）


God allows this to happen for a reason.. all I can do now is pray..

Hebrew 13-5-6

I've rediscovered an important, powerful Bible verse today, thanks to CG.

(Heb 13:5-6 RSV) {5} Keep your life free from love of money, and be content with what you have; for he has said, "I will never fail you nor forsake you." {6} Hence we can confidently say, "The Lord is my helper, I will not be afraid; what can man do to me?"

The Lord will never forsake us. Even during our lowest point in life, he will make provision for us, and always have our best interest in mind.

Even if He had forsaken Jesus on the cross (as mentioned in Mark 15:35-36 and Matthew 27:48,49, He will never forsake us human beings. That is His promise for us.

I've never actually quite understood the text when Jesus cried out on the cross, "Father father why have you forsaken Me?"

By now, when you try to interpret it this way, it makes sense, totally.

Reminds me of my favourite bible verse, John 3:16 ~

"For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life"

there may be times when we feel like God has left or forsaken us, but bear in mind, He is always there, with us, and opening pathways for us. Just like how He was with Joseph.

Have faith, and always pray.

Belated happy new year

Hello belated happy new year 2013..

We all survived 2012 ... not the end of the world yet as expected...

busy decemeber's gone.. greeted by a 45 degree hot january!! and it hasn't gone less busy even (you would have thought that january would be quiet.. but no... shop was flat out on wednesday morning when we opened... =.=.. and today.... )

i decided, no new year resolution for me this year!

felt like i've done so much in 2012.. and sacrificed alot of things that were once significant to me.. that I don't know what I want to do in 2013..

quarter century crisis hey? maybe.. I don't know.. have to stop and think.. what I really want..

in serious need to rebuild my spiritual life though..

减薪了！

officially getting paid as a full time pharma!

BUT

suffer tiny bit from pay cut!

BUT

in a good way :D

more like getting paid like what it had always been before pay rise.. with annual leaves!




holidays im gonna accumulate you once again! <3

work fatigue

physically exhausted... mentally dead...

i have never been this tired before.. 1or 2 sleep in(s) or will not get rid of this... 1 day or 2 will not do the trick either...

i need at least 1 week off if not at least 3-4 days off in a row... doing nothing!

am getting a little stressed from being tired, since I will not be able to perform to my expectations/satisfaction at work.

I am usually quite ok doing long shifts continuously for 1-2 weeks... but this time, it was for 2 months... 

was mentally prepared for it.. I did well for the first month... until things didn't go as planned (E.g. work extra shift /settle some important stuff when meant to have a day break/ being sick but couldn't get cover)

on top of that, unforeseen circumstances.. unwanted issues popped up when I wasn't prepared for it, all these added to my mental exhaustion.. 

my nightly skype lately (for the past 2 months at least) usually begins with have you eaten/just finish work/shower time @10pm/11pm... then fell asleep half way chatting... felt so bad /.\

don't like myself to be in the state where I keep telling myself or people around, I wish i can go home.. I don't wanna be at work...  not good when I actually like my job and enjoy working

this is the only time when I think being intern is great.. at least if you really wanna bludge or if you are sick you can call up and tell them you can't go into work... but now as a pharmacist, if I become ill, I have to find someone else to cover (very hard if it's short notice) if not, the shop cannot operate, without a pharmacist... 

in future, I'll make sure I give myself enough room/break for any unforeseen circumstances.. so that I won't overwork myself too much! oh ya, and learn to say no and stop feeling bad.. (as much as I would love to help out I need to care for myself first)

1 more week of locum work! I'm glad i manage to get someone to cover 2 shifts instead of doing 6x12 hours in a row! :)