work fatigue

physically exhausted... mentally dead...

i have never been this tired before.. 1or 2 sleep in(s) or will not get rid of this... 1 day or 2 will not do the trick either...

i need at least 1 week off if not at least 3-4 days off in a row... doing nothing!

am getting a little stressed from being tired, since I will not be able to perform to my expectations/satisfaction at work.

I am usually quite ok doing long shifts continuously for 1-2 weeks... but this time, it was for 2 months... 

was mentally prepared for it.. I did well for the first month... until things didn't go as planned (E.g. work extra shift /settle some important stuff when meant to have a day break/ being sick but couldn't get cover)

on top of that, unforeseen circumstances.. unwanted issues popped up when I wasn't prepared for it, all these added to my mental exhaustion.. 

my nightly skype lately (for the past 2 months at least) usually begins with have you eaten/just finish work/shower time @10pm/11pm... then fell asleep half way chatting... felt so bad /.\

don't like myself to be in the state where I keep telling myself or people around, I wish i can go home.. I don't wanna be at work...  not good when I actually like my job and enjoy working

this is the only time when I think being intern is great.. at least if you really wanna bludge or if you are sick you can call up and tell them you can't go into work... but now as a pharmacist, if I become ill, I have to find someone else to cover (very hard if it's short notice) if not, the shop cannot operate, without a pharmacist... 

in future, I'll make sure I give myself enough room/break for any unforeseen circumstances.. so that I won't overwork myself too much! oh ya, and learn to say no and stop feeling bad.. (as much as I would love to help out I need to care for myself first)

1 more week of locum work! I'm glad i manage to get someone to cover 2 shifts instead of doing 6x12 hours in a row! :)

爱情

当爱情真的来临时，真的会想那么多吗？

malware WTH?!

WTH came to my own blog and saw this BEwARE malware detected sign =.=

pretty sure its safe so i proceeded anyways ;)

好朋友好事近：）

上某个星期，我的一位有几乎五年未见的朋友，突然联系，convo 如下：

C: hi Cheryl, Guess what?
me: what?
C: guess
me: you're engaged? xD
C: good guess
me: O.O

当我知道后为他感到超兴奋超高兴的！高兴得连睡觉都是微笑着的，LOL有点傻好像自己要结婚似的。


以前，朋友结婚都是听回来，或是他们在fb公布，或是你大概知道会发生了然后不久后他们发请柬给你。

第一次吧，朋友亲口告诉，“我要结婚了！”

这与告诉你有男/女朋友，感觉很不一样。

有很感动的，毕竟我们还真的蛮久没联络，他也有说，高中朋友他还有联系的好像除我以外也没几个了（他人性格比较静）。


他们在一起也有三年多了，记得他们在一起时他也有告诉我，我们偶尔会联系，多数是他主动，我这个人不善于与朋友联系>.<, 有时候也因为很忙自己的东西。Kiwi 人很可爱，他们很少很少用网路，不用msn （他之前有因为联络而安装了），他们都是用googlechat (我不喜欢因为很少用gmail)。加上因时差问题，慢慢的就联系得少之又少。


问他怎么那么突然（想结婚），他说，也没有很突然，去年就想了，不过现在才有勇气问女方的父母。问他何时结婚，他说，今年11月呢！他说，原本是打算周末求婚，不过星期三时，他不想再等，所以鼓起勇气到她父母家说出他的意愿（他说紧张得冒汗LOL），过后再驾车到另个几十公里外的她去。


浪漫吧？


我在此献上祝福，希望这对即将成为家人的情侣以及他们的家人，always blessed and guided by Dear Father in heaven.

Frustrations

Sometimes, I get really annoyed at people, that just sit there and wait, expecting something good to happen to them, giving excuses that there are no opportunities, when I am making great effort to achieve what I want.

stop giving excuses and create the opportunity if there is none. Show others you can and worthy for them to put their faith in your abilities.

Guy with no ambition and full of excuses... frustrates me....

讨厌

有时候，

觉得自己很差劲，

想法不好，

不够体谅，

只顾自己，

不顾家，

不是个好姐姐，

自私，

不知足，

不感恩。

真的很不喜欢这样的自己

难过

sometimes, i really hate myself for all the negative thoughts in me

getting a new toy

i was in a dilemma, whether I should get a netbook, an ultrabook, tablet, or a macbook Air.

My Top priority, would be portability.

Tablet - very portable, even has docked keyboard and usb port (will not get 1 without usb port!), but i guess, limited functions. Price wise affordable ($800ish)

netbook - very portable, can do basic stuff .. very cheap ($300ish), crappy specs though.. well pretty much if i want something immediately for a cheap price i would go for this, but can i bear with ugly screen (compared to other questions), that is another thing to think about.

ultrabook - portable (11inch), better specs among all, more pricy compared to the ones above ($1k-1.5k)

macbook air - portable (11inch), specs similar to an ultrabook, IT IS A MAC, less issues with antivirus, not windows, very expensive ($1k-2k or 3k.. knowing myself i will pump it up to nearly $3k)

leaning towards ultrabook and macbook air, since my current laptop is pretty much dying.

no netbook, no tablet!


hence, new goal has been set - fund for my new toy!

right after i set this goal, i received texts to ask me to work some shifts, i was reluctant to work initially (as i have been busy enough and hence will be tired), but when the macbook air comes into mind, i agreed without thinking much further =)... made my decisions making easier! hehe $400 extra into my piggy by the end of this week!

was asked if i wanted to work too today when i was in the shop, but... instead of taking that 12 hours shift (easily $300ish !!!!!!!) , i spend $100 on body massage and lunch.... $$$$$$$.. money oh money!! but, it was a good massage and good day not working =).. i guess i need to give myself some time off at times


funding timeframe indefinite, but will most probably get it before I leave Australia to go to anywhere overseas. That way i can claim back $200ish GST. Good thing that I am still a Malaysian/tourist xD